Rollercoaster Week

O my precious, powerful, Jesus; please help me make it through!

Some weeks really test you more than others and I had one of those weeks. From the elation of job prospects to the depressing worries of my child telling me she would be kicked out of her home today. From my car running hot to the thoughts of who cares. It’s overwhelming and I am just going to veg out all day. I felt it all and so did Michael.

Sunday, my daughter texted me and told me she had to be out of her father’s house by next Saturday. She needs me to buy her a car and help her get an apartment. This is crazy. I have no credit. An accounting project required me to inquire about my credit scores and to my horror, I found that someone had tried to buy a car with my social and now my credit score is 328. How can I buy my daughter a car or sign for one? I’m on disability making barely $1000 a month and I’m trying to run 2 stores online and they cost almost half my check just to keep them running online. What am I going to do about my daughter. I can’t even help myself.

I told her whatever she did do or didn’t do that if she would just humble herself and say that she is sorry to her dad that everything would be okay. She is stubborn like me and refused to do it. I haven’t spoken to her today, but I am just trusting God that she did the sensible thing. She is still in high school and needs her father’s protection. I don’t want her out there in the world yet. The world is a much scarier place than when I moved out at 17 almost 25 years ago.

We volunteered at Grace Place this week and on the way home my car started smoking and running hot. We had to pull over and let it cool and fill up the radiator with water. I really don’t need this because the u-joint is popping and I definitely can’t afford two car repairs on the same car. Ughh, my stomach hurt so bad when the car started smoking because it was actually the good car. Michael’s truck vibrates going down the road and he bought the parts to have it fixed, but 2 cars down? I texted my daughter and told her what was going on that I wouldn’t be able to help her at all now with all the auto trouble. I didn’t hear from her. I’m sure she didn’t want to hear that.

The great news for the week is that while we were at Grace Place working, our friend who is heading up the whole thing said that she could find me a job using my degree through someone they know. Wonderful!! Michael may be hired there to work next week. We will find out after he meets with the board on Tuesday. These are exciting things, but with the other things going on it was hard to feel like celebrating. What do we do? How will we manage. Michael feels worried. He is the worrier between us so if I am worried, I am sure Michael is twice as worried.

Isn’t worry a sin? It won’t add one our to our life, so what’s the point? I’m going to keep blogging, working on my stores and hope the radiator can be fixed affordably. By affordably, is not the average person’s affordable. We are super broke. But, don’t we always get a blessing when things seem to be falling apart? Yes, I believe so. I do believe Satan is alive and working in the air so he knows some great things are on the horizon and is trying to keep us down. But, down with you Satan! Our God created you; therefore is more powerful than you! Thank you God for these blessings we are about to receive. I totally believe good things are happening and you are just trying to put a stumbling block in my path. Away with your stumbling block. Ha ha, I laugh in your face. I have my peace and I won’t let you take it even in the midst of all of this chaos.

I love you my eternal Father in heaven. Thank you for Your word that has kept me strong and I have learned so much from my past and how to be at peace in the middle of the storm.