I failed yesterday. I failed in keeping my peace and joy and keeping a committment. Saturday we were supposed to go to an in-laws home that I had never been too. I got up and turned on the hot rollers and had every intention of going. However, Michael woke up in a kinda bad mood and raised his voice at me. It was too early in the morning for me to deal with it and I had migraines all week. I took this as a huge personal attack rather than just keeping a low tone of voice and letting him get through a little rant.
I turned off the rollers, said forget you to the day and just accepted defeat and put myself in a worse mood. Sunday morning I wake and up feel conviction to be faithful and committed in the small things. I turned on Joyce Meyer and she is preaching about being committed in the small areas of your life. How does her preaching apply to me every single day when I turn on Youtube?
Ugh, now I really feel like I need to work on committments and such. I’ve been wondering where I should send my tithe. Well, why not to my favorite preacher? But, I can’t spare it. My tiny check doesn’t even make it to the end of the first week after I get it. Can I really send her 10% of my measly paycheck? This is where trust really comes into play. I’m going to do it. I am setting up my monthly donation right after I publish this post. I feel if I am going to succeed with my entreprenurial endeavors, I must be committed to tithing.
On top of that, I haven’t eaten since 4 yesterday. My stomach is burning a hole in my spine as I type this. I usually do not eat sugar or flour and I never eat meat. So, I decided to fast last night so that my body can correct itself from these migraines related to sugar and wheat. Will power is really tested during the holidays and while there are cakes in the house that everyone else is enjoying. I’m committing to fast until tomorrow night when I go to Celebrate Recovery. Oh yeah, I’m also committing to going there every Monday night whether I have a migraine or I’m depressed. I must commit.
If anyone reads this, I would appreciate a prayer for strenght to make it through this fast. Have you ever fasted? How do you feel while doing it and once you reach the end? Do you consume any raw foods or stick to just water? I would love to have a discussion about this.
Chaos Under Control 